i just look through the old messages and think, what the hell is wrong with me. He loved me. i loved him. why did i have to fuck up everything? im so stupid. sososososo stupid. We could’ve been great. Im sorry baby. Im so sorry. I pushed you away too much. You didnt ruin us, i did. And im sorry. i really am. I know you dont care anymore, but i just need to say this. im sorry. i am so sorry. i know deep, deep down, you might wish things would have been different. And to be honest, i wish that sometimes too.. Im sorry.
I ruined something so perfect and beautiful. and im sorry.